It's All Yours God
Author: Jaime DeCarlo
Jaime is a proud mommy of several children, all who have come to her in ways she never would have imagined! Angela is her 23-year-old, married step-daughter, Shelly (17) and Kenneth Jr. (15) are her husband’s biological and her adopted children of 9 years, Emmalyn is her miracle baby of 8-months that was never supposed to be and Logan is her 18-month-old foster-baby that has come and gone for the past 14 months!
Having just put down (for the third time) our precious foster-baby tonight, I am on the verge of tears and questioning God once again. Why was he returned to dysfunctional parents almost a year ago and then given back to us after 8 months? Why doesn’t the judge in our county understand how stable and secure he is in our home? Why did he just have an extended visit with his biological parents and come home so traumatized that he screamed himself to sleep in my arms tonight after we had finally gotten him into a great routine of going to sleep with little-to-no crying in the same room as our baby daughter?
Eleven months ago I was driving this same sweet foster baby boy, Logan, back to his birth parents “for good” and playing on the radio was Steven Curtis Chapman’s song, “It’s All Yours God.” That song helped me tremendously at the time, as this was the second foster baby boy in a row that we thought we’d be able to adopt and suddenly the tables turned on us. I constantly remind myself that all our kid’s are really God’s no matter how they come to us or for how long!
Shortly after that, we had our own baby (the miracle baby that we never thought we could have) and soon after she turned 6-months -old, we got a call from social services. Logan was back in “the system” and did we want to take him in again? Shocked and thrilled, we said “yes” instantly and he was back to us within 3 hours! That was almost two months ago and now we are awaiting a trial that could either leave him here or send him back into his former scary, dysfunctional lifestyle, and it’s harder than I could have ever imagined.
I must constantly remind myself of the fact that Logan is in God’s hands before the social workers, judges, lawyers, etc. This precious boy has flourished in our home under routine, consistency, love and joy in the past two months, but we may have to lift up our hands and let him go once again. Without God, this would be an impossible task, but thankfully, I know that it’s all His and I really have no control over what happens to any of my children whether they come to me by marriage, birth, adoption, or fostering!
I just encourage you, no matter what their ages or what trouble they may be giving you, to cherish your children every moment of every day and always remember that they are all God’s and He is free to give and take away as he sees fit. Find joy in today with your children!
Next Week's Author: Wendy Clark
Jaime is a proud mommy of several children, all who have come to her in ways she never would have imagined! Angela is her 23-year-old, married step-daughter, Shelly (17) and Kenneth Jr. (15) are her husband’s biological and her adopted children of 9 years, Emmalyn is her miracle baby of 8-months that was never supposed to be and Logan is her 18-month-old foster-baby that has come and gone for the past 14 months!
Having just put down (for the third time) our precious foster-baby tonight, I am on the verge of tears and questioning God once again. Why was he returned to dysfunctional parents almost a year ago and then given back to us after 8 months? Why doesn’t the judge in our county understand how stable and secure he is in our home? Why did he just have an extended visit with his biological parents and come home so traumatized that he screamed himself to sleep in my arms tonight after we had finally gotten him into a great routine of going to sleep with little-to-no crying in the same room as our baby daughter?
Eleven months ago I was driving this same sweet foster baby boy, Logan, back to his birth parents “for good” and playing on the radio was Steven Curtis Chapman’s song, “It’s All Yours God.” That song helped me tremendously at the time, as this was the second foster baby boy in a row that we thought we’d be able to adopt and suddenly the tables turned on us. I constantly remind myself that all our kid’s are really God’s no matter how they come to us or for how long!
Shortly after that, we had our own baby (the miracle baby that we never thought we could have) and soon after she turned 6-months -old, we got a call from social services. Logan was back in “the system” and did we want to take him in again? Shocked and thrilled, we said “yes” instantly and he was back to us within 3 hours! That was almost two months ago and now we are awaiting a trial that could either leave him here or send him back into his former scary, dysfunctional lifestyle, and it’s harder than I could have ever imagined.
I must constantly remind myself of the fact that Logan is in God’s hands before the social workers, judges, lawyers, etc. This precious boy has flourished in our home under routine, consistency, love and joy in the past two months, but we may have to lift up our hands and let him go once again. Without God, this would be an impossible task, but thankfully, I know that it’s all His and I really have no control over what happens to any of my children whether they come to me by marriage, birth, adoption, or fostering!
I just encourage you, no matter what their ages or what trouble they may be giving you, to cherish your children every moment of every day and always remember that they are all God’s and He is free to give and take away as he sees fit. Find joy in today with your children!
Next Week's Author: Wendy Clark
posted by Passionate Purposeful Parenting @ 12:00 AM
1 Comments:
Thank you for sharing your heart wtih us, Jaime. Your special love for your children shines through in your post. Children are such a blessing! I plan on giving my kiddos even more kisses today!
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